Dear Momma: Just Keep Doing The Impossible

I lay there holding him, shushing him, and bawling my eyes out.

Nothing was working. 

Nothing I did or didn’t do, said or didn’t say worked to calm him down.

JJ was sick, and we had no idea what was bothering his poor little tummy.  And because of this we had many sleepless nights…both of us.  JJ and I were working on 2 to 3 hours of sleep a night.  Many I spent walking up and down our hallway, or rocking him in the rocking chair, or if I’m being completely honest, laying in his crib with him because I was DESPERATE!

Desperate for more than two hours of consistent sleep.  Desperate for silence.  Desperate for some peace for the both of us.

So I held him while laying on the mattress I put beside his bed and burst into tears.  I felt it coming and I did not hold back.  Because LORD was I exhausted.  There is nothing worse than NOT sleeping for days on end (cue early newborn days) while also trying to figure out why your toddler is in so much pain at 3am.  I sobbed for me and him.  I sobbed because I literally had no idea what else to do.

Have you ever been there?  Have you burst into tears because EVERYTHING you’re doing to help your crying baby isn’t working?  Have you lost it because you feel like you’re at your wits end?

I’m willing to bet you have.

I’m willing to be you’ve been there at 3am, awake with your baby or toddler, or 7 year old child.  Awake for what feels like days on end.  Awake with no consistent sleep in sight.  I know you understand what it feels like to be losing your mind, or be on the brink of losing your mind. 

 This isn’t the first time I’ve reached my breaking point in motherhood, and I know it wont be my last. 

And I want you to know that if you’ve sobbed or felt lost, or wondered when things will get easier…I’m with you.  And thousands of momma’s are with you too.

So let it out girl…it’s okay.

It’s okay to cry while holding your baby because you’re so tired, or scream into a pillow because you’re burnt out, or hide in the closet for just one moment of alone time.  Whatever you need to survive those really hard days of motherhood, you do. 

Do you momma. Keep doing the impossible.

With Love,

Your Honest Momma

Nicole BrittonComment